... And Then There Were None - 6x16
i was going over in my head last night all the times i could remember a weapon has been placed in dean’s hands and his reaction has been ambiguous or mixed and
jo: what do you remember about your dad? i mean, what’s the first thing that pops into your head?
(dean shakes his head)
jo: come on, tell me.
dean: i was six or seven, and uh, he took me shooting for the first time. you know, balls on a fence, that kind of thing. i bulls-eyed every one of ‘em. he gave me this smile, like…i don’t know.
Sam gets lonely and loses himself, Dean comes back and finds that if Sam had made a demon deal, he would be pissed about it, he brings Sam to this point of being sorry for not having done it.
4 seasons/6 years later, Sam gets lonely and loses himself, except he loses himself less. Dean comes back and finds that he’s pissed off Sam didn’t make any deals or anything. He brings Sam to the point of being sorry for not having done it, again.
And people support Dean in this. I just don’t get it. How Sam expressed how he felt in “Sacrifice” was how Dean’s reaction made him feel in 4x01 and in 8x01 and in plenty of other moments. Just cause Sam doesn’t complain and whine like Dean doesn’t mean Sam isn’t hurting, that his heart isn’t broken.
Yeah. Dean keeps shifting his Approved Behaviour goalposts, but they have one common area: it should return them to the status quo, Sam with Dean in Dean’s car, eating at places Dean likes, earning money the way Dean wants to, doing a job it is infinitely clear only Dean enjoys.
It’s hard to judge Sam even if he WERE planning to sell his soul to Crowley. For all he knows, that’s what Dean WANTS him to do.
This assessment isn’t fair at all. In 4x01, Dean was concerned that Sam had gone off the reservation, made a deal for him and brought him back in exchange for his own life, which would have made all of what Dean went through in hell after saving Sam’s life, null and void.
In 8x01, Dean was upset that Sam didn’t even look for him, by Sam’s own confession. It wasn’t about Dean wanting him to sacrifice himself, it wasn’t about Dean wanting him to make a deal. It was about the fact that this time, Dean wasn’t in hell, Dean wasn’t dead, and Sam didn’t know where he was, and because of that, he didn’t look for him.
You can’t tell me that if it were you, and you disappeared and your family never even bothered to look for you that you wouldn’t be pissed off too.
And I blame this disgusting character choice on the writers and not on Sam.
dean is so awesome he can fight with towels and saucepans and it’s fucking badass